Tuesday, September 2, 2008


We all wonder what our purpose is. Why were we created? Isn't there more? Is this really what God wants me to be doing? I think even if we think we know what our purpose is we still struggle at times if we are really living it out to it's full potential.

As I was driving home I was thinking about my job and my life and asking those questions. God spoke to my heart (or out loud in my head) that the only way to find my purpose is to first seek him with all my heart. Funny how you think you are doing something right then realize you are wrong. Ok, maybe funny is the wrong word. I keep trying to figure things out in my head. I could do this or that and maybe that's what God's purpose for my life is. Really, if I listened more closely to Him he would make it perfectly clear.

I know it's not earth shattering news. I already knew that. You know how sometimes someone will say something to you and you don't hear it until someone else says it? When God says it(and I actually hear it), I tend to listen better.

Monday, September 1, 2008


... I think I'm religious. I hate that.

I hate when I realize that I'm not really loving people but judging them. I hate when I realize that I'm going through the motions of "Christianity" instead of focusing on my relationship with God and others. I hate when I start to think I've got it all figured out. I hate when I realize I haven't.

I love that He forgives all of that. I love that I can fall at His feet and be refreshed by his love, be refilled and refueled to start again.